“Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.”

Helen Keller (1880 – 1968).

Foreword By Tyardia & Nonke VL

A decade ago one member of our little group, Judith, was the victim of a particularly violent and sadistic sexual assault and attempted murder. She was just nineteen years old at the time. During the course of a frenzied twenty minute ordeal she fought off her attacker but at tremendous cost in terms of physical injury to herself.

Her recovery was long and painful, as over the following two years in hospital she had twenty six corrective surgeries and many more minor ones. Such was the violence of the attack and the resulting injuries she spent eighteen months learning to talk, and walk again. While the hospitals were able to put her pelvis, skull, chest and face back together she had to try and to hold onto her sanity, a difficult enough task with all your sense intact, but much more frightening and challenging when your world has become near silent and your ability to express yourself has been all but destroyed.

Ever since the attack all of the family have encouraged her to try and tell her story because we felt very strongly that all too often the full horror and consequences, particularly the long term consequences, of violence on Women fail to be appreciated. Her story shows that survivors of sexual assualts have to serve out a life sentence both mentally and physically. It is a sobering fact that even if caught a rapist may serve 5 to 10 years in prison if they are convicted, the figures also show that on average a rapist stands just a 1 in 200 chance of serving jail time.

So over the years Judith has been trying to write her story. It has been a gradual and often traumatic process for her, and is likely to be for many years to come. She is writing this story for herself but allowing the rest of us to witness her exorcising daemons. For you the reader please be warned, both her pictures & her words are very graphic in their detail and make no effort to spare sensitivities. If you are upset by these things then we suggest that you go no further. If you are a Survivor yourself and are subject to ‘ triggering ‘ please proceed with care.

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10